Have you ever felt like you were holding it together on the outside while crumbling within? What if the person you present to the world is a carefully constructed facade? For me, that was the reality for years. Until I finally got sober at age 25.

It wasn’t easy, and it didn’t stick the first time. But now, 10 years sober, I can look back and see my failures as well as the steps I took to finally stay free from alcohol.

In an effort to help other struggling addicts and loved ones who want to understand the struggle of addiction better, I’ve written a memoir about my road to recovery. In these blog pages I will share fragments from my (yet to be published) memoir and insightful recovery stories.

In my memoir, Sober, Barely Sane I peel back the layers of deception to reveal the raw truth about addiction, love, and the relentless pursuit of sobriety. It tackles the brutal realities of alcoholism and addiction and the toll it takes on relationships. 

Sober, Barely Sane offers a relatable and deeply personal account of the path to recovery. It speaks particularly to the "high-functioning" addict, the one who hides their struggle beneath a veneer of “normalcy”.

Despite repeated attempts to quit, I found myself trapped in a cycle of relapse, often choosing unhealthy partners. My gut feelings were constantly ignored, leading to further emotional turmoil.

The book avoids sensationalism, instead offering a sentimental undercurrent that reflects the internal battle of addiction. Through the demanding process of recovery, I learned to trust my instincts and make healthy choices. 

My journey extends beyond alcohol, encompassing healing my relationship with food and taming my relentless quest for romance as a means to fill a void.

Sober, Barely Sane is an inspiring testament to the transformative power of self-discovery and offers a glimmer of hope for anyone seeking to break free from the cycle of addiction, both for the addict and those who love them.